I’m drowning more and more each day but maybe it’s because I don’t want to swim. I don’t feel like or have the energy to try and go up to the surface of the water. I’m losing breath. I don’t expect a sailor to come through and save me, because I feel like even if they will I’ll refuse and push the rope away. I’m too deep into the water, little flapping won’t help, I’ll have to swim better to save myself. But now, I don’t feel like it. I don’t have the will. Maybe the fishes will guide me, maybe not.
– Avni Verma ✨️